© 2019 by Old Sault

Stay.

I was holding you down, my love.

The stone had set in my mind 

and you were holding onto my eyes

I could see your words before you spoke

All that I wanted was to stay.

Wrap your legs around my mind

Something blind in the colours of your eyes.

Hard pill to swallow but makes me high -

Hide away

When all I wanted was to stay

All that I wanted was to stay.

Echoes.

I think I can smell my aching heart

Because I’m a lion

and you are lyin’

I think that I tore our worlds apart

Up on my throne

with broken bones

 

I think that I’m still in love with you

And in my arm chair -

I cut my hair

I just want to feel like I’m brand new

But you’re out there

And I am fair wear and tear

 

The voice inside my hollow walls

Echoes

I know I can’t be here anymore

I’m seeing noises

I’m hearing voices

Keep thinking of you breaking down my door

I draw the blinds

And cover my ears and eyes

 

The voice inside my hollow walls

Echoes

Molecule.

Threw a dime in the wishing well

From my backyard to your hotel 

I am not afraid

My aching knees won't break

Two bottles down and a bitter end

I'm throwing shade at your best friends

I know I'm a fool

I know you think I am

 

But do you want to see me?

Do you wanna? 

 

Took a last lie and then I kissed your lips

And lay my head down between your legs

You are not my fault 

You're a molecule

 

Do you want to see me?

Do you wanna? 

Melbourne. 

I’d come unstuck and you were leaving

My cigarette ashing on the floor

And something ‘bout that had me feeling

Like I don’t want to be here anymore

But I’ll wait, I’ll wait, I’ll wait, I’ll wait

 

I haven’t been the same as I was

next to you in Melbourne

And all of the pain that tangles 

I can’t feel it anymore

 

Cut my losses, I fell over

Codeine killing the pain in my head

Was 3 days since I had slept

But when I lay down

I’ve got to admit I wept

I wept, I wept, I wept,

 

I haven’t been the same as I was

next to you in Melbourne

And all of the pain that tangles 

I can’t feel it anymore

I can’t feel it anymore

 

I’ve been on my own

More than you know

Feeling like a ghost in my own home

Altering my brain

With chemicals in rain

it’s just fractured pain

 

I haven’t been the same as I was

next to you in Melbourne

And all of the pain that tangles 

I can’t feel it anymore

I can’t feel it anymore

Ten.

I've been out of my mind for a while

Acclimate to pain so juvenile

Heartbeat on an automatic decline

I'm cut so deep I feel it down to my spine

All my failures weigh on my chest when I wake at 2am

Look to the right side of my bed

The moonlight had illuminated

And the streets are cleaned at 3am by a man in a truck with a light

Yeah, with a big, bright, yellow light

Calm me with the ocean in your eyes

Come ride my world

We'll spin in motions, untied

I found my vice but it wasn't enough

Another failed, little third degree love

And it's all my fault now

All my failures weigh on my chest when I wake at 2am

Look to the right side of my bed

The moonlight had illuminated

And the streets are cleaned at 3am by a man in a truck with a light

Yeah, with a big, bright, yellow light

Sail Pt. II (Where the Pain Grows)

 

It’s dark in my mind

Cut the throat of afternoon 

Slowly drift into the dark side of the moon 

Big head, a lonely waterfall in bloom

Don’t let me back

I can’t go back to you

 

So I know

The wind might blow

But I can’t feel it 

I’ve been left out on my own 

Lifeless

Frail boned 

The tide is rising, my mind is slow

 

My mind is slow

 

Little sound, come find me now 

The lonely moon, her aching sounds

With empty eyes

She wraps her legs around my head

Stuck inside an empty mind 

Patiently waiting for the tide

To bring me back from her cold and loveless bed 

 

So I know

The wind might blow

But I can’t feel it 

I’ve been left out on my own 

Lifeless

Frail boned 

The tide is rising, my mind is slow

Sail 

 

Can’t see further than what’s in front of me 

Eyes are painted red in afterglow 

And frozen are your fingertips

Against my spine; where the pain grows

 

It’s dark in my mind

Cut the throat of afternoon

Slowly drift into the dark side of the moon

 

So I know

The wind might blow

But I can’t feel it 

I’ve been left out on my own 

Lifeless

Frail boned 

The tide is rising, my mind is slow

Idle.

 

Counting the steps to your doorway

Your new house smelled like red wine

I watched your mouth in the hallway

Capturing every lie

And on the ledge of your staircase

I wiped the dust with my mind 

You said

“Don’t fuck around or we’ll be late”

But I’ve lost concept of time now

 

Hmm, call and I’ll be there

Hmm, call and I’ll be there

 

We got tangled in street lights

Silence was deafening

Twisted your fingers on the volume

I couldn’t hear you sing

And it makes sense for you to stay the night

But you idled out on the street

Blinding the road with your headlights

I watched the wheels as you drove away from me

 

Hmm, call and I’ll be there

Hmm, call and I’ll be there

Suburban Failure.

 

I don't know which way's up

But everything’s above me 

On a medical induced high

But I was feeling lonely     

 

And I lost my heart 

I lost my heart

With the dimming of your headlights

We'd come this far 

We'd come this far to fade 

With the dimming of your headlights 

 

I don't know if I can stand another minute here 

I don't know if I could bare another minute 

Another one, just wait

Just wait

 

Suburban Failure

 

I don't know which side is right

So I stand here in the middle 

On a medical induced high

But I was feeling little 

 

And I lost my eyes

I lost my eyes

To photographs of the great lies

On a king sized bed   

I lost my head inside of it 

For a minute I was watching the lights

Flicker from the street tonight

Flicker from the street tonight  

 

I don't know if I can stand another minute here 

I don't know if I could bare another minute 

Another one, just wait

Just wait

 

Can we go back, just for a minute when

I lost my friends, I lost my friends

You were this lovely angel in my head

You held the golden ticket to my bed

I was waiting for your second score

(And if you wanna know)

(Yeah if you wanna go there)

I was standing in your front yard

With my bags packed, waiting to get in your car

I know you were there but you weren’t watching me

You were there but you weren’t watching me

Parents scared; they had no faith in me

Parents scared; they had no faith in me

I was scared of getting old

I was scared of getting old

(I am scared and I am getting old)

(I am scared and I am getting old)

Came Undone.

You put me out like a fire 

Whose warmth wasn’t welcome here 

And you promised to never think twice,

To not let me start again 

So I didn’t bother it 

Been carrying all this shit 

‘Til I came undone 

And I wasn’t over it 

But I never told you this

And I came undone 

 

When I laid you down on my bed 

I felt a shift in me 

You were kissing the top of my head

And nobodies done that yet

And I realised I needed it

So I started breathing it 

And I came undone 

Then you weren’t the girl I met 

Bumming a cigarette 

You were someone 

And I came undone 

I Didn't Really Mean It.

I made a mess

I swear I did 

I know that I control my head 

I can’t deny my blood

My blood 

 

I take a breath

A leap of faith

I know this rain is not a waste

Come fill my cup 

Come fill me up 

My blood

 

I know now, I don’t need emancipation  

I learned that I just need to find some patience 

 

Our big backyard

The birthday cards

All shooting holes through my facade 

That I don’t forgive 

Not Even if it’s my blood 

 

I see you there 

In your old chair 

My mother’s crashing,

My brothers ashes

Are sitting by her bed

My blood

 

I know now, I don’t need emancipation  

I know that I need to find some patience 

I know now I don’t need some liberation 

I know I just need.

 

I cut my ties 

Of all the lies 

I’ve told to you throughout my life 

I take back that I don’t love you 

My blood

I take back that I don’t love you 

My blood

I take back that I don’t love you

My blood

The Wheel.

When I woke, you know I was adjusting

It was cold in my head for a moment

Scared that I might spend my life

Just waiting in silence

and I couldn’t fill my lungs

From all of the breathless rage

But the longer I stayed alone

Gave life to my airways

 

My head is a rainbow

I’m coloured in smoke 

Your hands are a railway

I’m picking which path to take

‘Cause you couldn’t see my heart

Through all of the breathless rage

No, you wouldn’t see my lungs

If i ripped out my rib cage                          

 

I’m pushing the wheel, babe

Forward and onward